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Your projects are not your real baby, you may need to dispose them

“This project is my baby, I don’t want to see it perform badly, I will give everything to protect it”, Does this sentence sound familiar to you? You may have heard it from your colleague or may have said it yourself.

In my view, ‘Like my baby’ is a metaphor which is over used and abused by many persons. What you will do when you found a really bad architecture based application whose programmers are just treating it like a baby? They love it, but afraid of losing it also.

Bad architecture happens, not just because someone was incompetent, bad things also happens due to things which were beyond control or unimaginable at the time of conceiving an idea or plan. But few people refused to understand that project may be like your baby, but they are not your real baby.

In real world, when we have a baby with different abilities, we try to help them to grow in different directions, we are supposed to support them in every sphere of life. We want to be with them, always; after all they are our babies.

Almost one year ago, I was discussing some serious flows in one of the application to his lead programmer who was also part of architecture and in fact was only “subject expert” available at time of idea conceiving and execution.
When I point out issues with architecture, he become little defensive and used the metaphor that a child cannot run from his first day. Things will improve with time. I tried to use the opportunity to tell him than if a child is born with bone disease, we cannot prepare him to run to fastest 100 meter run. He was really hurt with my statement. He was behaving like someone has pointed fingers at his own real child.

We need to understand that treating your projects like your real baby is a way to disaster. Projects got some specific objectives. If those objectives are not being met and current architecture does not support any way out, then we may need to discard them. So, we can start fresh. It may be difficult but only viable option for future use.

Love your projects, care for them, but understand that your projects have a purpose. … And this ‘purpose’ is the ultimate reason. Care for it.

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PHP Interview Questions

Hi, I have created a page on my this blog named PHP Interview Questions on which I will compile a list of questions which I normally asks to my candidates. I am not worried about leaking my questions strategy as I know only a good person can handle my supplementary questions I asked on the spot.

Fear of pain is more painful than pain itself

I normally don’t write about my personal thoughts and life very frequently due to a simple reason that I am a professional and I am attached to many projects at the same time and I always fear that my personal thought or experience may be bad for my relationship with some of my colleagues or companies I am working with.

As a professional I had made a policy decision that I would resist myself from writing about my personal experiences about my work and projects on my public blogs.

As a professional I had made a policy decision that I would resist myself from writing about my personal experiences about my work and projects on my public blogs.

Although sometime it is really tough to do, especially on the projects when I am being forced to be quite by someone “so called” Boss or senior in the name of keeping good relationship with the client, which eventually don’t happen because no client can compensate a bad work with a good relation. Sometime you need to speak up for the betterment of project. I specially find it more difficult when I think that I may add some value or eradicate something bad in process of project finalization or implementation… and they just forced me to either be quite or just following them blindly.

In last one year I have gone through such experience twice, but …. Wait a second ……I am not going to write about such experiences. (Policy Decision)

My regular readers knows that I normally write about programming and general issues regularly on my different blogs and rarely write about my personals thoughts. Then why I am writing on my personal blog after such a long time?

In last five days I have gone through a specific period of my life when I face different aspects of mysteries of life and pain.

In last five days I have gone through a specific period of my life when I face different aspects of mysteries of life and pain.

I was in Munich city of Germany for a project and as a pure vegetarian (outside my house) I have some restrictions and reservation about food as a normal average Indian like me may have.

I can’t eat the food source of which is not known to me and I can’t eat any pork product so my choices were very limited in Munich. Before reaching Munich it was decided that I am going to use the combination of China and Italian food. (As a matter of fact I like china food a lot and Pizza is the only Italian dish I enjoy), In my view it was a decent choice without any major change in my eating habit or preferences.

(Please don’t start a war about the origin of Pizza, I have very limited knowledge about it’s history but I enjoy it a lot)

But my colleagues who was with me had some other plans and decided to cook at home and he wanted me to be partner of it, reluctantly I agree (I really don’t know how to say a NO).

Keeping story short… everything goes fine but last Sunday evening a pain just grip whole of my stomach after the dinner, initially I thought that it may be some routine thing as I have taken the dinner lately .. I took some digestive pills but they did not work….

I even took the heavy pain killer which I keep with myself for my occasional ear pain…. I tried every trick including prayer to God that please don’t give me this pain as I just have five days to go to home.

BUT nothing worked and it kept increasing with the time…. Just after one and half hour, First time in my life I was on an ambulance and then in the middle of a battery of doctors.

BUT nothing worked and it kept increasing with the time…. Just after one and half hour, First time in my life I was on an ambulance and then in the middle of a battery of doctors.

They did every possible test in short duration of time, they found stones in my bladder but were not able to find any displace stone in my tummy or any infection caused by stones ….. that whole process took more than one hour and during which I was just in pain and nothing else… after that they start experimenting with pain killer … first a mild one … then more dose of it … finally when I beg them to use a stronger one they gave me a good one which bring some peace to my stomach…. I was transferred to a ward and then I was in sleepy mode till morning.

In the morning a new fear came (apart from huge European hospital Bill) what will happen if the pain starts again… Oh No… and it started….. And it was not the pain in my stomach but really was more painful.

My hands were cold even on a thought of pain. Then I realize that fear of pain is more painful than pain itself. My boss suggest that I should immediately come back and I also support the idea … as I was the person who was really feeling the pain… and more importantly project termed was going to finished after four days.

I took the leave of hospital against the advice of doctors; they made me sign some papers which I signed, although I was not able to read anything written on those papers as I don’t know German language. (But fairly enough they provide me a copy of the document which I signed).

………. Then started the great pain period… On the Monday morning I was not feeling pain in my stomach or body but by evening it was in my whole body I even feel pain in my stomach when I breathe…. Unfortunately company was not able to book the ticket to Delhi on the same or next day.

They book it with a gap of one day. I stop eating anything … I just feared that I may be again in the same situation of pain. It was difficult but I spent whole two days just on juice and milk and some biscuits.
On Wednesday morning, I had to rush to Munich airport; I was having my two bags full of my old cloths and accessories weighted more than 25 KG and a handbag with my laptop.

It was difficult and I feared that I may not be able to make it to airport easily.
Then things started improving suddenly… God knows from where I got the strength that I was even able to use stairs to go to platform as escalator was not working on the central station.

Then I pick the train to airport but worst was waiting… after crossing three or four station I realized that I left my handbag at central station…… But magic starts….

I jump from the train at very next station and pick the train back to central station while having my hands full with my other baggage.

God was really taking the tests of my strength on that day … in hurry I use the wrong side of the door to exist from the train and then had to climb and then down the stairs to go to platform where my bag was waiting for me… Thankfully no passenger put the alarm on a not attendant bag.

God was really taking the tests of my strength on that day … in hurry I use the wrong side of the door to exist from the train and then had to climb and then down the stairs to go to platform where my bag was waiting for me… Thankfully no passenger put the alarm on a not attendant bag.

I took the train again to Munich airport only to know that it terminate after some stations and I had to change the train again with my luggage.

Finally I reach the Munich airport… suddenly I realize that no pain was there in breathing… and my body was also not feeling any big pressure.

I resist myself from eating anything on plane to Zurich from where I was to board my connecting flight to Delhi.
After waiting for two hours at Zurich airport finally I board flight to Delhi. As soon as I reach the plane I feel a great sense of relief and suddenly I realize that I was not feeling any pain in my stomach even using a small test punch.

Then I decide to take the plunge… I ate the food provided by them. And Yes…no problem…No pain … I was at ease … the ease of life … ease of being towards home.

So what was the “thing” which I was experiencing since last two days specially after leaving the hospital against doctor’s advice?
If it was a medical problem how it disappear without any medicine or treatment and if it was not then how I have gone through such acute and unbearable pain? Doctors were able to find some stones in my stomach so I can’t rule out a medical problem.
Then I decide to write about it… and I found out that I was really suffering from a medical problem named “fear of pain”. It is a medical problem

http://www.medterms.com/script/main/art.asp?articlekey=12283

After the first stroke of pain after my dinner on Sunday, I was feared that if this pain increases it may ruin my whole trip… that was the point when things started going out of control… That was the point when I lost the control from my body and I was totally controlled by “Fear of Pain” instead of pain itself.
For the next two days I was suffering from the “algophobia” as doctors termed it.

As soon as I was coming closer to my home I was getting the feeling that pain is not a big deal… I can just take a pain killer injection and everything will be fine in few minutes as doctors in India are different from doctors of Germany, My insurance was going to work in my country and even fear of a huge bill was not there… so the fear of pain was just not there and I was healthy.

AS I am writing these lines I am feeling perfectly fine, had taken a good meal in the evening, drove my car for more than 150 km on the highway with my wife and children and YES everything is fine.

People who fear pain are more likely to suffer it

Does Algophobia Bother You?

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If Suggested By Nata

If you can keep your head when all about you

Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;

If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,

But make allowance for their doubting too;

If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,

Or, being lied about, don’t deal in lies,

Or, being hated, don’t give way to hating,

And yet don’t look too good, nor talk too wise;

If you can dream – and not make dreams your master;

If you can think – and not make thoughts your aim;

If you can meet with triumph and disaster

And treat those two imposters just the same;

If you can bear to hear the truth you’ve spoken

Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,

Or watch the things you gave your life to broken,

And stoop and build ’em up with wornout tools;

If you can make one heap of all your winnings

And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,

And lose, and start again at your beginnings

And never breath a word about your loss;

If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew

To serve your turn long after they are gone,

And so hold on when there is nothing in you

Except the Will which says to them: “Hold on !”;

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,

Or walk with kings – nor lose the common touch;

If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;

If all men count with you, but none too much;

If you can fill the unforgiving minute

With sixty seconds’ worth of distance run –

Yours is the Earth and everything that’s in it,

And – which is more – you’ll be a Man my son!

—————– By Redyard Kipling

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‘IF’ suggested by Nata Lashevich

Just some minute ago Nata Lashevich asked me to read the poem, it was fantastic so I am reproducing it here.

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or, being lied about, don’t deal in lies,
Or, being hated, don’t give way to hating,
And yet don’t look too good, nor talk too wise;

If you can dream – and not make dreams your master;
If you can think – and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with triumph and disaster
And treat those two imposters just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you’ve spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to broken,
And stoop and build ’em up with wornout tools;

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breath a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: “Hold on !”;

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings – nor lose the common touch;
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds’ worth of distance run –
Yours is the Earth and everything that’s in it,
And – which is more – you’ll be a Man my son!

—————– By Rudyard Kipling

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